Life as it is.

Sometimes, I get distracted. I forget the wonderful life that God graciously has given me. I married the guy that I never thought I would. Haha, now that probably sounds bad, but don't take it that way. lol. I mean, I thought I knew who I was going to marry.. I thought I had it all planned out. But, I wasn't truly happy, and I certainly wasn't truly secure. I felt terrified at times that I was making a wrong decision, but then I would just push it away assuring myself that I was just being my normal second guess everything Joelle cuz you just never know self. Lol. That is a mouthful. You know that feeling, when you've made a decision that you think should feel amazing! but then once you finally crossed the t's and dotted the i's, you feel.. wrong. Scared. And just..empty. And it's awful! Now don't get me wrong, the person I though I was supposed to be with was an amazing guy! But just not for me. Though it took me a long while to truly admit that, and have the courage, which trust me only God could have given me, to do something about it.

Now take a look in the background of all this chaos. And you'll see the one thing (besides God who was with me every step of the way in this mess, but He's on a whole different level. lol) that took away all the madness. I didn't feel scared of decisions or worried about the future, but only ecstatic about the present. And that one thing was my very best friend. But come on, a best friend is only a best friend! Nothing more, right? Well, in my case, wrong. Nigel Piercy was my very best friend. We talked about everything and nothing, and laughed about everything and definitely nothing at times. Whenever I was with him, I didn't think about tommorow, or even earlier that day! I only thought about being with him and how much longer I could spend with him until it was time to go. Now I didn't think this was necessarily odd, because I love all my bffs, and enjoy all of the time I have with them. I never want to leave when I'm with my friends I love so dearly! Though the weirdness in me did begin to set it, when I enjoyed spending more time with my bff than with my fiance. :/ Awkward. Lol.

Now fast forward 2 years and to save your time in reading this, I married my best friend. God put me on the path He originally designed for me, and I couldnt be happier :) Sometimes I forget that, and I pout, but what woman doesnt? Lol. Point is, I was blessed enough to marry the one person that I never wanted to be without. Thank you Lord, and thank you Nigel for being my husband, and still my very best friend.
Oh, and just incase your wondering, my ex fiance and I are still friends and he is happy as well :) God works everything out for the good of those who love Him and have been called according to His purposes. I forget what verse that is, but it is a good one :)

Until next time, God bless :)
-Joelle

Revelation

So, it's been a while, but I'm here now. Lol. I have been uber busy with my externship and life as usual..
So, my externship is in emeryville...and I live in antioch. As I'm sure you can put the two together, that means much traffic. Which leaves a lot of Joelle thinking and talking to God time and listening to K Love. lol. But as I was driving today, and approaching my final destination, God gave me the slightest revealing of Christ's love, but it was so amazing. Even the slightest  things of God make the biggest differences, right? Right. Anyway, back to the story! So I was driving, listening to K Love, and mind you, it has been an odd morning for me. Very unfocused and just kinda scatter brained (which very much displeases me.. lol. but really!) So I don't remember which song it was, though I wish I did! But thats not the point either :) So as awkward and difficult as this may be to explain, simply because it was just a quick glimpse in my mind, I still believe its worth the try to share:) Because God is good!

SO. As I was saying, I'm driving, listening to K Love, really wish I could remember the song, but cant, and suddenly, I got this beautiful image in my mind of Jesus, while he was here on the earth, just smiling, being Himself, and just LOVING others. It was amazing to me..Cuz here I was, angry and frusterated that I was so absent minded, and God just lovingly showed me a picture of His grace.. His Son, my Savior, just pure love. People drawn to Him because He just has a pure GRACE about Him.. His love is like no other, and it's what we crave. Love you all, just wanted to share that with you :) Hope it means something to you too! And hope I remember to post again soon! Lol. Have a blessed day!

-Joelle

Oy! Told you..

Lol, so I mentioned in my first post that it would probably be hard for me to keep up with this, and well, it kinda has been. But not terribly!! My last post was about 2 weeks ago, doesnt seem like that though! Anywho, for those of you who read about my last post, I did get the adorable little pup! Thank the Lord :) He is good, and He made it all work out! Yay God! lol. My husband is now in love and has a new favorite, Kona, our puppy. lol. She isnt as big as the picture actually, she is almost 5 months, so she won't be very big. She is a handful though! Lol. But all and all she's a good pup! :)

So anywho, enough about the puppy I suppose! Not to much has been going on.. School is almost over (cant believe 10 weeks went by that fast!!) and then on to my externship.. yikes! Please be praying for me! Lol. Really though, I'm praying that God provides a close location in a nice, preferably smaller (not to crazy that is) office where I don't have to deal with blood or sicklyness. lol. I would prefer to be in the back office, if you can't tell already! Annnddd Lord help us all with patience! My parents are moving. and well all know how that is! Uhg. My mother is the stressor of all stresses, so pray for us all! Lol! No really, I just want everything to go smoothly for everyone :) God willing! So, now that the prayer requests have been posted, lol, let me know what's new with all of you :) If there's anything anyone would like prayer for, e-mail me or post it or whatever! Im not saying I'm a priest or a minister or anything like that at all, just willing to offer a helping hand.. or ear? lol. Just love you all! :D God bless!

until next time :)

hope!

pray that I can get this adorable new puppy!! and my mom wont be mad! seeing as she's moving out soon but hasnt yet, i pray she just accepts it! lol

The day...

So today was eventful...and uneventful.. I went to school, ccmcc, woot, then went to hang out with my bff who is visiting here from SD with her ADORABLE baby while her hubby is on deployment! (Keep them in your prayers! we want them safely home soon! :)) It's great having her here again! And thanks to my good friend Nic who is helping me spread my blog! woot! :D so yes, im kind of on a blog frenzy at the moment talking about worthless rants, but still, it will soon fade I'm sure and you will only here from me once every 3 months or so ;) Well, maybe not that extreme, but you get  the picture. And now my wonderful hubby is home from a long day of work and we will go enjoy some yummy ice cream! Thank the good Lord it is gluten free!! :D Goodnight everyone, I will leave you with some pics of the baby I deem most adorable boy ever!! Alexander. :)

And one of me and his beautiful mamma (my bff of coarse :))

granted I look like a man, but oh well. Lol

goodnight :)

First post!

Hey! So I'm excited that this is my first post! lol. Though I don't have a ton to say, I'm still happy to be doing something where I can express my inner most thoughts! Hahaha jk.. But really it's an easy time killer!

So, since there isnt too many phenomenal things going on in my life right now, I'm just going to leave you with a slideshow of the best day of my life thus far, my wedding! Enjoy this while I go enjoy some lunch! :D Gluten free of coarse! :) (BTW! may is celiac awareness month! im celiac btw, if you couldnt have guessed! so go by my friend Nicole's blog  http://elephanthour.blogspot.c and check out the cool stuff she has going on to raise awareness! thanks! 


slideshow!